Monday, January 19, 2015

Temporary

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Call me crazy but there's this fear that I've always held on to for a long time. The fear of losing something that I hold dear to my heart. It always sits at the back of my mind in most situations because I am well aware that everything we have in life is temporary. Everything can go away just like that, especially the things we are fond of. That fear keeps me in check and in line to not take things for granted. I've always clung on to that fear, it is almost comforting. But lately, that fear has been put under a pile of happiness and feelings of content.

I feel it is time to shed light on that feeling again.

To remind myself that everything is temporary.

Sunday, January 18, 2015

First Cave Experience

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Gua Tempurung, Gopeng, Perak.

Planned to climb a mountain but somehow ended up in a cave. It was raining that day so our plans to go mountain climbing was hashed and we went to Ipoh breakfast breakfast instead. Such contrast, I know. On the car ride back to KL, I fell asleep but was pleasantly awoken to the news that we were at Gua Tempurung and that we would be exploring the insides of the cave. Although I felt that it was ridiculous to have to pay for tickets to look at nature, it was good to see the stairs in the cave in fairly good condition as we climbed up the hundreds of steps. There was a part of the cave where it was sort of like a hollow tunnel and cool wind blew through it just like air-conditioning. The dark cave was dotted with yellow spotlight so it was not as dark as one thought that a cave should be. Don't even get me started on the natural rays of light shooting in from the spaces of cave. That, topped off with some running/dancing in the drizzle when we got to the foot of the cave, it was a good day. Life should always be like this, expected yet pleasant.

Saturday, January 10, 2015

I've Already Said Too Much

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Once in a while I find myself reflecting upon the things I did, I said, I am doing. And of late, a change is needed on the way I think and feel.
The more I think about it, the more I feel that I have somewhat veered off track from my personal mantra: reflect and stay humble. More of daydreaming and lesser on malicious and snarkiness from here on out.
Also, note to self: feel, but do not be. I tend to over-think and over-feel things so I need to organise my thoughts and feelings so that both don't mix. I should constantly remind myself that feelings will always be there but it doesn't necessarily mean that I am what I feel and that feeling should not determine the way I act.

It's time to get back on track. Back to basics.

#reflectandstayhumble

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Wrapping Up 2014

List of things to be thankful for 2014 - heads up, long post ahead.

It's that time of the year again where we count our blessings, look back at the what-could-have-beens and make new plans for the next year. 2014 has been good to me overall, though there were certain downs, the ups sure made it all worthwhile. This year was more of leaving behind old relationships and saying hi to new beginnings.

Firstly, the year started off a lot of uncertainty as well as difficult decisions to be made. I would like to think that those events helped me grow in terms of will, heart and as a person. Yes, there was a period of limbo between whether to let go or to hold on, but a series of difficult and personal decisions later, I'm glad things turned out the way they did.

Of course, when there is good, there is bad. I got burned and learned to let the wound heal, dusted off the dirt and grew wiser. This was an eye-opening year, that's what I can sum it up as. It helped me see a lot of things that had always been happening around me but it was always others who were at the other end. But this time, it was me and I'm glad it was in a way because I saw who true friends are as well as who the poisonous ones are. My advice? Don't trust people easily and those who are nice to you, aren't necessarily "nice". But that's just the human behaviour right?

Anyway, enough with the bad - those are just little hiccups to the good things that came my way this year.

For work, I scored a trip to Chengdu, China to see some pandas and climbed Mount Emei and saw some snow. All these years working, I've never gotten a chance to travel out of the country for work and I'm extremely thankful for this. Just when I felt that I didn't do anything particularly outstanding professionally this year, then the QZ8501 Indonesian AirAsia flight tragedy came about. I had to rush to Singapore Changi Airport and report on the situation from there for three days. Although I had a fever throughout, the experience was invaluable that will be useful coming years.

For travels, I am happy that I managed to see a few new places:
- Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam
- Bali, Indonesia
- Chengdu, China
- Pulau Sibu, Johor
- Janda Baik, Pahang
- and finally went on a super spontaneous trip to Ipoh, Perak

Even managed to bring mom to a food trail trip in Penang for Mother's Day. I know it's silly but I saw a list of Tumblr before that said we should set a target to go to at least 5 places a year, three of which should be new ones. So glad that's more than five new places on my list! :)

Glad that I stuck to my resolutions to go for more live shows this year. Finally went for my first music festival at Laneway Singapore 2014 and saw a bunch of artists like James Blake, Jamie xx, Haim, Vancejoy, Savage, Unknown Mortal Orchestra, Jagwar Ma, Youth Lagoon to name some. And yep, it definitely made me feel cooler than you because I went for it first. Then there's Baybeats Festival at Esplanade Singapore. Fell in love with our country's own Pitahati (saw them live in so many places and made friends with them), crossed over to Singapore and found out that Spacedays is awesome, saw Mogwai for Urbanscapes, KL and most importantly, I saw Taylor Swift for her Red Tour in KL (!!!) with my #SS Charissa who's a way bigger fan than me.

Studies-wise, it's not as hectic this year and I'm counting down the semesters before my degree ends next year.

Also, I have to mention that the biggest thing that happened to me this year was meeting that one person. The past few years haven't been easy at all and as clich├ęd as it sounds, I never expect meeting one person could make such a difference in my life. I saw things differently, I learned to appreciate things I was told not to before. This doesn't mean that I'm not myself anymore, believe me, this person fully lets me be myself and I've never felt more comfortable. It's hard to believe that there's someone who enjoys food as much as me (we went all the way to Ipoh for an unplanned food trail trip) and someone who can wake up in the morning with me because I am a breakfast/brunch person. Nobody will know of our struggles and how hard it was for us to move past those hurdles. There was a time where I felt that it was better to give things up but I'm glad I stuck through. So, thank you, you. You are my pleasant surprise. :)

For 2015, my hopes are:

+ to work hard for even more career growth
+ going past the final hurdle for studies and graduating soon (so over the 2,500-word papers already tbh)
+ traveling to more new places: Bangkok and Sabah are musts!
+ make more effort and continue going for more live shows
+ learn to be at peace with myself and stop those meaningless insecurities
+ take better care of my health, as always :-(

This year was full of decision-making, staying strong and having faith. I've learnt that nobody knows of the pain and our struggles, it is easy for them to judge. So this coming year, other than praying for things to go well, I also decided that I should think lesser of others' opinion because my own is the most important above all else.

Happy New Year, everyone. Be good and stay safe.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Eating Ipoh

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"Food is a way of connecting people and with the local culture" - Dec 1, 2014

taufu fah/soya bean drink delivered to your car | mee kicap + kee kari Mat Jasak | Ipoh Hainanese Chicken Rice + fried tauhu + taugeh | fruit + ice cream bowl at Tong Sui Kai | coffee to cap off the night | white coffee at Sin Yoon Loong kopitiam | Simee Market scene | to search for the best egg tarts | New Holly Wood restaurant breakfast for 2 | Lou Wong taugeh chicken for lunch | how can we leave without trying the Nasi Ganja from Yong Suan?

I've been going on and on throughout this year about how I want to have breakfast in Ipoh. We were in KL for the Mogwai show that week and then a wild idea came about during lunch before we were supposed to head back home that afternoon - that if we don't do it now, when will we ever drive 7 hours to Ipoh from JB? Set. The next thing we knew, we were on this gastronomic adventure to try as much as we can in that packed 1 and half days. Even managed to throw in a visit to the Ipoh railway station and the main post office. Bliss.