Saturday, July 12, 2014

The Sun Sets Prettier in Bali

Take off | volcano Mount Batur | dreamy Lake Batur | Barong dance | Batik painting technique | one of many pretty doors | travel buddies | taking in the Tegalalang terraced rice fields | morning view | luscious villa for our stay | afternoon view | all mine! | all mine again | catch the waves | Kuta beach view | staple food | hello | pondering about life | the sun indeed sets prettier in Bali

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Bali Waves

the neon-coloured waves. maybe it was a reflection from the sunset skies but the waves looked like it had an explosion of orange and pink tints. like those you get on a popsicle you ate as a child. the feeling came without me knowing it. i thought i would not get affected but it came suddenly. before i knew it, my head was spinning with thoughts. thoughts about this and that, the past and the future - questioning why life was like this. i sat there, not bothering if anyone was watching. they were. they have always been watching. but i just sat there staring at the candy-coloured waves gushing to shore. where were the waves rushing in from? i pondered again about many things. i felt a pang of anxiety. i was scared for a moment there. what if i never met him? what if i had finished my studies and went overseas for work instead? why is the sun setting? is this how the people in Phuket felt when the tsunami came for them years ago? were they also admiring the beautiful waves like i was at that precise moment before their demise? am i going to suffer from the same fate as well? we all live to die. am i even alive? the thoughts came one after another before i could even think of an answer to the previous one. the waves looked so beautiful i could not help staring at it. not beautiful, more like mesmerising. pulling me in. the sun was showing its last glimpses of light. i blinked and looked away. tears appeared out of nowhere and left the corner of my left eye. the sun had set by then. night had fallen. i looked up. clouds the shape of meanders like those on maps looked at me. i laughed. maybe i am not alone. no, they are always watching. always.

Wednesday, July 2, 2014


At what point do we actually tell ourselves "I've made it"? Is it the moment you get married to the love of your life? Is it the moment you got the promotion that you've always wanted? The moment you signed the papers to your first property? Or is it the moment you feel the proudest of yourself, be it the littlest of achievements? At which point do you feel that you have the right to feel better than others and look down on them? At which point do you feel that your achievements mean more than other's achievement by yours or their standards?

Humans can be easy to deal with but we make it so hard to deal with ourselves. I am always in the opinion that humans are an arrogant lot. We are, by nature, judgemental, quick to jump to conclusions, greedy, discontented and hard to please. Humans are inconsistent, unpredictable and difficult to grasp. Do we do things because we seek something in return? Or do we genuinely do things because it came from a good place in our hearts?

If you think humans are complicated, the relationship/connection between humans is even harder to understand. Recent incidents have made me come to the conclusion that the human connection is actually very fragile. Say one wrong thing and bye bye, we are friends no more. That's not it. Take the national level for instance. Lately there has been so much talk about racial issues, racial conflict, racial disharmony. I found it very contradictory when in the front line, we have parties talking about being one race and one country and at the same time, there are people (media houses included) blowing up issues about the downside of implementing religious laws, fighting for one race and such. They say that they are fighting for us but why must the process be so harsh and hurtful? Because humans make things difficult for ourselves. Everything that is happening now is caused by humans themselves. They keep going on about harmony and tolerance and respect but that's all on the surface. We are more divided than you think. The cause? Humans. Different needs and the confusion of wants as needs.

That being said, when there's darkness, there will always be light. I believe that in our cold and hollow hearts, a glimmer of light flickers. With the right people around you to guide you and act as a fan to that flickering light, the brightness will soon shine through to burn away the negativity and toxic in your hearts. Find it in yourself to take a step back from this fast paced world from time to time to look upon yourself. Have you been too cocky lately? Do you feel that you should have helped that blind man selling tissue on the curb pick up one of the packets that dropped on the ground? Have you snubbed an intern at your office because you feel that she was less important than you but in truth, her heart is kinder than you'll ever be?

We live in a world with millions of other humans in it. You are not the centre of the universe, neither am I, nor your aunt or your neighbour's brother. Let's all learn to be kind to each other and be nicer to one another. We need each other to survive, so let's nurture that connection. The world is already a messy and tiring place, why make it even harder to co-exist among ourselves? Let's reflect, and always stay humble. Your heart will feel lighter and good things will ensue.


Sunday, June 29, 2014



Cousin's wedding. My derp face. Old tailor shop in town. Asos dress. Kate Spade clutch. Cotton On platform wedges. Listening to Foster The People's Supermodel album on a loop daily. I have run out of things to say. Till next time.

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Witnessing the tabling of a Bill

One of the perks of the job, is that we get to witness firsthand what goes on behind the scenes. And in this case, the much talked about Johor Housing and Real Property Enactment Board Bill 2014. It became controversial initially due to some clauses (I will not bore you with the details) and there were a lot to be done to report on the amendmentd and to get reactions/views from various parties.

These were taken on the last day of the second edition of the 13th Johor State Assembly seating recently when the enactment was passed by the state legislative. That explains the hectic and packed house in the media room as all the media houses sent at least 2 representatives. Some of the media members (including the Utusan bureau chief) were even sitting on the floor throughout cos there were not enough chairs. Then my boss came to join us and we all went back to the office after the seating ended at around 5.30pm and continued to write our stories until about 10.30pm. Tired, but the atmosphere is great!







We landed the front page again the next day and joint bylines. This is what makes it worthwhile.